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TeenageDeath_Girl
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Name: Ness
Gender: Female
Interests: EBM, Industrial, Metal, and Electronica. Here's a bit: AFI [lyrically, they are amazing], Murderdolls, Dope Stars Inc., Collide, Marilyn Manson, Bjork, The Birthday Massacre, Frankenstein Drag Queens From Planet 13, Switchblade Symphony, Skinny Puppy, Opeth, Sisters of Mercy, Dope, Still Life Decay, Android Lust, Nox Arcana, Dark Funeral, Deadstar Assembly, Velvet Acid Christ, Alien Sex Fiend, ATB, Wumpscut, Zeromancer, OhGr, The Birthday Massacre, Poison the Well, Suicide Commando, Evil's Toy, My Dying Bride, Razed in Black, Bright Eyes, Funker Vogt, Combichrist, Aphex Twin...
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Member Since:
8/22/2003
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| Look at him. Hes so good to me. <3
 I'm actually happy. I feel weird. And akward. And unlike myself.
But I'm happy. We'll see how this goes. | | |
| oh my god, im trying so hard. im so bad at pretending, i cant even believe myself. i'm just getting worse. i go to clean up, come back, and get even worse. i do what he wants me to, i leave, i give space, and im worse than ever. if i knew dying would spark the least bit of emotion, i'd do it for him. but the part that always gets me is that i know he'd laugh, and call me pathetic. | | |
| Damn. Shit really hit the fan this time. | | |
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All these accidents that happen,
Follow the dot,
Coincidence,
Makes sense,
Only with you.
You don't have to speak,
I feel.
Emotional landscapes...
They puzzle me,
Then the riddle gets solved.
And you push me up to this state of emergency.
How beautiful to be.
State of emergency,
Is where I want to be.
All that no-one sees,
You see,
What's inside of me.
Every nerve that hurts,
You heal,
Deep inside of me.
You don't have to speak,
I feel.
Emotional landscapes...
They puzzle me,
Then the riddle gets solved.
And you push me up to this state of emergency.
How beautiful to be.
State of emergency,
Is where I want to be.
State of emergency,
How beautiful to be.
State of emergency,
How beautiful to be. | | |
| Maybe some people will call it growing up, but I call it apathy. It's just weird the way he's acting, pushing me away, not talking to me, not communicating, not trying at all to have a meaningful conversation. We've been reduced to just a couple, something trashy and average. It used to really get to me, but I try less and less every day. Its not that I dont care, because I get upset about it a lot, but I just feel too helpless to even bring it up. I think sometimes I sit there hoping he will, and knowing its useless. I dont like the way I'm feeling around him. I dont enjoy myself anymore. I liked the way I used to be, even if it was too much to handle sometimes. I dont think we have anything out of the ordinary anymore. On a better note, I saw Skinny Puppy on Saturday. Ogre and cEY blew my minddddd. Also, this guy called Otto von Schichar played. Quite an amazing show they put on. They had laser guns and a fat guy in a superhero outfit who made out with some random chick in the crowd. It was great. I ended up getting pretty wasted and talking to some pretty chill people. | | |
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